oh god..!!i am going crazy and nuts.I think i seriously need a breathing space really badly.i am not sure how i am going to express all my feelings into words and do not know how to say it out to people but i really need a breathing space.i feel that i am already suffocating and i really want to let it all out, let all my fustrations and anger all out but i just cannot do it.i don't even know how to let it all out and solve it, let it be family or job.maybe i should really sit down and think of what i should seriously do right now at this moment but i am really sick and tired of all these things that are happening to me but i just cannot get things right now at this moment.i am in no mood to think of how to solve these problems too, people who know me always say that i am cheerful,talkative and approachable.but beneath all that i am actually covering all my sadness as i am afraid to show others.i do not want to show other people when i am actually sad instead of happy.i do not want to trouble them of all my troubles as some of them already have their troubles and problems that are waiting for them to solve and i can only keep them all inside my heart.i want to shout out loud and i want to scream to my heart's content as screaming will actually makes me forget all my troubles for a while but i simply just could not do that as i am so busy with all the work and problems that are bothering me so i just cannot find time to go to some places to scream.instead of screaming to forget all my troubles, i really feel like crying now and sometimes i feel that i am really useless as a person.i think i am going to break down one of these days.tired.tired.tired of these problems.